Interviewing for jobs....

really sucks.

Can I say that out loud? I really dislike it very very much.

It makes me nervous.

So nervous.

More nervous than I ever remember feeling. ever.

Almost nauseated nervous.

It is more the waiting that I despise.

waiting. really. sucks.

And. I don't like rejection.

it makes me doubt myself.

when i know i am a good teacher.

I have only been rejected once. so far.

But it feels like every school.

and everyone. rejection sucks.

It feels like I am back in the dating world

and I just found out the guy I am crushin'

doesn't even think I am cute.

That is what it feels like.

rejection hurts.

where did my confidence go? Funny how that happens.

Good thing there are lots of fish in the sea (schools) and that I am married to an amazing man.

I know I really am blessed because I have this job waiting for me at AF.

So why don't I just accept?

I know why.

I am waiting

once again. waiting.

to hear from all my interviewees.

Why do I put myself through this?

oh yeah.

because I love teaching.

oh and I got a sliver today in my hand and it really hurts. and only half of it is out. and I cannot get the rest out. since when do I get slivers? can i just complain today?