This Peace in My Heart

Yesterday Jeff and I didn't have work...something we are working on. Substituting only comes around every now and then, it is definitely not a consistent source of income... so we decided to go to the temple to do work there. I couldn't think of a place I would rather be on a day where I needed Him for than anything. I am usually not one to divulge personal feelings - really personal feelings - on my blog, however, at the Temple yesterday, I really felt peace in my heart. Peace even though these are perilous times. A peace that I am sure I am not the only one to feel. I needed a answer. I needed His comfort. I needed to just be near Him and feel his presence. Which I did.

I used to think that once I graduated it would be so easy to find a teaching job. I thought it was one of those professions that would always be in demand, that would always be in need to further the education of our young ones.

I guess nothing is in demand now.

What can a person do to make themselves look unique or better than another teacher when in fact we are all the same - desperate for some kind of job, any job - to help us get through the tough times. I am no better than the person in line for an interview next to me, who actually probably needs the job more than I do since they have kids and a family to provide for. We all have our reasons and needs. It is a hard time right now.

Sitting in the Celestial Room I prayed... more like pleaded with my Father for some kind of answer. Where should I be now in my life. WHERE am I going? Is there something I could be doing now? Will I ever get the chance to be a teacher? Through all this pleading, crying, feeling... I felt calm. I looked to my left and saw my sweet husband, smiling.

I know I am in a good place in my life. I am happy. WE are happy. Things might not be what we expect them to be, but He has a plan for us and He is merciful. He knows what I'm feeling. He knows what I need. He knows what WE need. I have so many blessings in my life, and even though I don't quite have a job... yet... I know he is looking out for me and helping me look in the right places and be in the right places and do the right things.

Tears may come and go. Insecurity may come and go. The world can throw everything it's got at me, at us. He will always be there and that comfort stays with me always. We really have so much to be thankful for.

So, friends and family, if you are reading this...

Thank you for who you are.

Thank you for being our friends.

Thanks for bringing smiles to our faces.

You are angels and make life the happy and good life that it is.

Among the downers, there is peace in my heart.

“This is a place of light, a place of peace, a place of love, where we deal with the things of eternity.”

- President Gordon B. Hinckley